Hello monday ;)

well, ive been neglecting this blog. so bad, but the truth is i can never think of new goals
:( really, im just trying to get through the next two weeks until school is out for summer without having a complete mental breakdown. i know i can do it, but i am just to excited for summer!

the only goal i have been attempting to keep up is the no starbucks, or chipotle... and exercising often. And i have to say, i've been doing pretty good! Bikram yoga is so addicting and completely what i've been looking for. I always want more of it. i hope i can keep doing it after this month!

besides that everything is going so well, i have been so happy lately which is why i think i find it so hard to come up with goals. so that might be a good thing, right?

IM BACK!

well, i've been gone for a while now... my apologies. but im back with a big goal! so, here we go

today is april 9th, that means summer is right around the corner. that means my lifestyle needs to change NOW. I am putting some restrictions on myself for the next monthish. until May 14th. aka the day i will for sure be in a swimsuit. publicly. but don't worry, im super excited.

1. no carbonated beverages aka soda.
2. no Starbucks. (super sad face)
3. no Chipotle.
4. no fast food of any sort.
5. fruits / vegetables with every meal.
6. eat 3 meals every day.
7. pretend like i have enough money to go to yoga.

by doing these things, I will be much healthier than i am now. i will have more money than i have now. both of these things make me happy Becky. Who thinks i can make it?

My goals this week

Here we are, back at Monday. I've been trying to think of goals for this week, but its been rather hard. I still don't exactly know what i am going to decide, maybe i'll just write until i think of something? Here we go...

exercise
I have been slacking the past few weeks. Exercise. every. day. this. week. i need to do it. and along with this i should be drinking more water. 8 cups of water every day. (eeer excuse me while i go fill up my water cup...twice) This week is technically spring break from school, so i have no excuse to not make exercise a priority.

this weekend
keep myself busy

Hi my name is Becky, and I have OCD.

SO, I've been thinking lately (that might be the first problem) that maybe my obsession with patterns, and numbers, and routine might not be as helpful as I thought.

What initially triggered my awareness of this compulsion is my invoices. Everyday at work i invoice all the tickets, and then staple them. I staple these tickets in groups of 4 in between my fingers, cute i know. My favorite thing is when the invoices are in multiples of 4, so the last group fills my finger gaps perfectly. amazing. Every time this happens, it puts a smile on my face! but, obviously, this doesn't always happen, so when it doesn't i feel like i need to fix it. It now bothers me if the invoices are uneven. silly right?

Ever since i recognized this invoice trend, i started to see other habits i have. For example, i check websites in the same order after my work is finished, and it bugs me if i disrupt that order. Or, as i awkwardly found out, i want the dishes to be done in a specific way... or just cleaning the house in general. I have to search my radio presets from 1-6 and can't go back to 1 before i click the rest (only sometimes on this one) im sure everyone has things they do like this that make them feel comfortable.

Basically, my question is at what point are these routines helpful, and when do they become a burden on myself and others. Am i creating a routine that my creative, spontaneous self is afraid to break? Is my need for these things affecting others, negatively?

am i overthinking the way i overthink things? lol opinions?

today i will be productive

I have decided that this blog shouldn't just be about goals, but also i will talk about my day to day life. are you excited? lol

so this weekend was exactly what i needed. i didn't work Saturday so the entire weekend was mine, to do whatever i wanted. After a fabulously relaxing weekend im back at work and fully charged. i feel so alert and mentally prepared.

i read an interesting article this morning about how busy is a state of mind, and a very broad term used for many things. mostly busy is a cop-out. people don't usually want less things, they want the right things. i thought this post was very insightful and found that i often use the term busy, when i really don't have much to do, but instead i just want to get out of doing something. i need to be honest and organized, not make excuses for myself.

this week in "becky has goals"

my first and only goal of the week i think will be the hardest goal yet. i have been pushing the idea around in my head for a while, but knew that today it needed to be done. this week i am going to avoid all office gossip. i will not talk about anyone, i will not engage in listening to latest updates. Working for a small business creates a lot of gossip, everyone knows everything about everyone else. and its pretty annoying. so starting right now i will not be the cause, but instead the solution ;)

HELLO!

i missed last week, oops! but last week was a little hectic... so i don't feel too bad ;)

goal one
this one might sound a little random but my goal is to make Cory coffee every morning. For some reason i was so busy last week i think i only made it one day, and it kind of bugged me. This week he will have coffee everyday :)

goal two
our current laundry situation is getting under my skin, but laundry is so time consuming and i just can't seem to accept that it wont all get done at once. My goal is to not stress about the laundry, but focus on getting one load done every day. Nothing more, Nothing less. By the weekend it should be almost finished.

goal three
don't sweat the small stuff. Learn to accept the few dishes in the sink or the laundry. Enjoy my life.